sucking the life out of me

No, not Weight Watchers, although this morning was not an enjoyable experience. It does feel good to accept just how bad things are and to be acknowledging it publicly (you know, through the safety of cyberspace). I am only 13.4 lbs lighter than I was a little over four months ago. There. I said it. Now, I can move on.

So, what is sucking the life out of me? These freaking essays for grad school! Sucking. The. Life. Seriously, I think anyone who manages to write even halfway decent essays ought to be accepted. How do you get your career to date, reasons for pursuing an MBA, short-term and long-term goals, and your motivation for attending a particular school into a 900 word essay (that’s for the University of Texas), let alone the 500 words the rest of my chosen schools require? How do you tell about what you have to offer without sounding totally full of yourself? How do you not want to rip someone’s, anyone’s, eyeballs out after writing the essays necessary for just one school?

If this is how I feel after four essays, I’m sure to be dead after 20, or at least completely nutters. I burst into tears today. Tears! Absolutely ridiculous.

10 thoughts on “sucking the life out of me

  1. Ooh, Jill made a good point! Is it possible to recycle any of these essays and use them for more than one school?My husband went to graduate school and I used to work in the Philosophy department at UW, specifically with the grad. students. I used to tell people that they should only go to grad. school if they were so passionate about their chosen field that they couldn’t imagine themselves doing anything else! It’s a lot of freakin’ work. Curious about your backup contingencies…

  2. They are really tough to do, Zack just went through all that last year and then 2 years before that. It sucks and it is really draining. If you need some pointers you can always check with him- heck he’s gotten into 2 grad schools so far and applied to many more over the last 4 years, so he must not be to bad after all that practice!! ha/ha

  3. You’re going about it all wrong. When I needed essays written, I just had Erika write them and I watched TV. Much easier 😉

  4. good luck chloe and hang in there- i’m so not looking forward to the essay portion of internship apps. you’re a great writer, though- you’ve come this far and you will get through it- one word at a time. 🙂 as for the rest, you ran a marathon! 🙂 your body will end up back where you want it to be- i still think you’ve been doing amazingly well.

  5. Essays, shmessays–I know it’s stressful, but just seeing how beautifully you write makes me think you can pump out essays without even thinking about it. Best of luck in everything you’re tackling…

  6. Wow good luck with that! I have never had to write an essay to be accepted in school. When I went to beauty school all they wanted me to write was a check to pay them 🙂

  7. Hang in there Chloe! You have taken on a lot of stressful tasks lately. Grad school applications and essays? STRESSFUL. Weight loss? Again, this can be very stressful too; especially with things like grad school apps.Anyway, just thinking about you and wanted you to know that I’m cheering for you over here in CA. Hey, and we haven’t even met!Oh yeah, I love the food pictures you post. How do you get such wonderful lighting?

  8. ack! that has me sweating just thinking about it.i know you can do it.if there is anything i can do to help, just let me know. that includes bringing you ice cream during your writing time.i did get a laugh that you wrote “nutters” 🙂

  9. Well said Jill! I didn’t even think about that! Not knowing anything about grad school or the essays, all I can wish you is endurance 🙂 You can do this!

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