i’m still alive…

So, I was taking a quick break before heading out for a run (which, I realize, is a break, as well) and saw this post on my sis-in-law’s blog that made me smile, so I wanted to share. Check it out!

The best part is that I get to babysit “mini-me” on Saturday night…at which point I’ll either be celebrating or sobbing. Either way, the test will be over. Hopefully, the first practice test wasn’t a fluke…although the second one that I took makes me think it was. I’m probably stressing over nothing, but this test will go a long way in the determination on where I will spend the two entire years of my life…oh, and my entire future, so I think my stress level is appropriate.

Okay, break’s over. I’m off to run before hitting the books for the third time today. Damn permutations!!!

16 miles

Oh, where to begin? Let’s start with the poor preparation. As I mentioned in the last post, running didn’t seem to make it on to the schedule this week. Not once. So, I was a little concerned about my long run. Do you remember what happened the last time no midweek running happened? And that was only a seven mile long run (which, incidentally, was what I thought my midweek run would have been on Wednesday)? No? Let me refresh your memory. It was awful. I thought I was going to die and that was only seven miles.

In an attempt to make this long run as painless as possible, I first decided that this had to be a one way run, so I called my dad Friday (I was worried I would get home after he was already in bed) and asked him if he would pick me up at the end of my run and take me back to my car. He said, “Of course” and then I told him I’d call when I got to the end and tell him where I was on the trail. I figured I’d be starting about 6:30, so I told him I should be done by, or before 9:30.

Then, I made sure to be as prepared as possible before I went to bed. I got home early Friday night, after a fabulous HSM2 party. I planned to leave really early to avoid any possible heat issues. Then, when I got home Friday night, I discovered, as I laid out my running garb (clothes, energy stuff, fuel belt, etc.), filled my water bottles and put them in the freezer (thanks for the tip, Holly) I discovered that my socks, the ones I know work on long runs, were dirty. So sad. I put them in the washer (with a full load…I’m no water waster) and then headed to bed, deciding, since I had to dry the socks, I would get up at the same time, and just start my run a little later. Yes, that’s how I feel about my socks. It’s 16 miles. I’m not going to risk blisters with socks I don’t know.

The nice thing about having a little extra time for the sock drying was that I remembered to eat. I have discovered that Power Bars and Cliff Bars are really the only thing I can eat before a long run. I ate my Vanilla Crisp Power Bar, greased my body (remembering last week’s painful underarm chafe-age), put the running clothes on (sans socks and shoes), pulled my hair up, I pulled my water bottles out of the freezer (thanks for the tip, Holly) and then I finally noticed the faint sound of drops on the roof, rain drops. That’s right. No wonder it looked so dark. I knew, when I began this training, that inclement weather was likely to happen for at least one long run and so, I had already decided that it was not going to stop me.

I donned my nice warms socks and shoes, grabbed my stuff and headed out. I headed up the canyon. While the rain at my house had slowed to a drizzle, such was not the case up South Fork. It was raining. Hard. I had made this decision months earlier, so it was not a question that I would be getting out of my car and running. It actually felt fantastic to be out in the rain. I haven’t run in the rain in ages, at least not in a downpour. I was loving it. And then it slowed.

The rest of my run passed about as expected. It was long and hard. And by the end, I thought I might not make it. I hit 14.5 miles and I had this thought…”I’m almost there”. Well, the problem with thoughts is that your body often communicates them to your body and “almost” in my head and “almost” in my body are two very different things. It took everything in me to keep going. And, at this point, walking, which I needed to do on occasion for my heart, was probably the worst thing for my poor knees. It gave my body time to realize just how much pain it was in, and it did not want to cooperate. Somehow, I kept going.

I also decided at the 14.5 mile mark, that I would do the last 1.5 miles as an out and back, because I had just passed an intersection I knew and it would be easy to tell my dad where to pick me up. When I hit the turn around point, I couldn’t do it. I knew my body would quit. At that same moment, there was a slight break in my music, and I heard my phone ringing. I was almost there. .75 miles to go. There would be no phone answering. I kept pushing and pushing. I had to finish this damn run (sorry about the expletive…but that’s what I was really thinking).

Finally, it was over. I had conquered my 16 mile Goliath. I called my dad. He was already out and about…looking for me? It was after I got off the phone that I listened to my message. I should have saved it so that I could write it down word for word. Basically, it went something like this, “Chloe, this is Dad. Just wondering where you’re at. You didn’t answer your phone (really, is that why you’re leaving me a message?). I hope you’re not dead on the trail somewhere. I’m going to head out and start looking for you.”

And that was the highlight of my run. I was laughing so hard. I know it’s probably not that funny to you, but it was just what I needed. I told him I’d be done around 9:30, so when it was 10:00 and he hadn’t heard from me, he started to worry. He called me three times. I seriously adore my dad. I got the same feeling I had when he called and woke me up at 3:45 am last Monday because he hadn’t seen my car. I don’t think he worried as much about me when I was a teenager. It’s really quite cute.

Anyway, today my body is definitely sore. Part of it, I’m sure, is that I didn’t stretch after. I know, it’s horrible, but when I called my dad, I still had about .4 miles to go to get to where he could pick me up and I was moving at snail’s pace. I think an old lady with a walker could have out paced me. Seriously. And all I kept thinking, once I stopped laughing after listening to the message, was, “Wow…and my body is supposed to go 10.2 miles farther than this. Huh.”

My playlist, once again, was the same, with the exception of slow songs. Although, after this run, I’m ready for a change, so look for a new playlist next week.

And here’s a great post someone else wrote. Check it out.

busy, busy, busy

I was out of town this weekend. It was my niece’s baby blessing. She looked just like an angel. I was very busy helping out. It was fabulous.

Being with them down in Arizona actually made me miss it (just a little). I had so much fun with little Madeline and my other nieces and nephew who live down there (and the last nephew who was also in town) but then I tried (tried being the operative word) to do my 10 mile run. In Arizona. In August. After not running all week. I don’t miss it so much. Utah really is an ideal place to train.

I have much to share, but no time to share it. I will be so happy when this week is over. And, in case you’re wondering, my run turned into a run/walk and went from 10 miles to 6.5. It was a bad day. I didn’t make it to WW’s at all because I went to a birthday party with my sister-in-law and her kids in AZ, which was very fun because I got to see lots of friends whom I haven’t seen in a while and I happened to meet Rachelle’s sister, Laurie (it’s a small, small world when you blog)…and I got to play with my nieces and nephew and their little friends on these huge blow up contraptions. I felt like I was 6 all over again.

So…there’s the little update. I do have some commentaries coming that prove to be entertaining, but for now, this will have to do.

of mom and memories

Today would have been my mom’s birthday if she were still alive. I spent a good portion of the day thinking about her (it’s a little hard not to on her birthday). There are moments when I still miss her so much it hurts. Today, however, was not one of those days. Today I just remembered all of the great times we had and how much fun she was. Today, I thought about how lucky I am to be her child.

There’s a line in Steel Magnolias (one of my mom’s favorite movies) that Shelby (Julia Roberts) says that I absolutely love, and I feel like it’s totally applicable:

I’d rather have 30 minutes of wonderful, than a lifetime of nothing special.

I feel like I got a lot more than 30 minutes of wonderful. I got 18 years.

There are hundreds of things I could share about my mom, but I think I’ll just share a few of my very most favorite things. Here’s a little taste of my wonderful:

My mom loved unicorn pops (you know, the lollipops shaped like a unicorn’s horn?), orange kool-aid ice cubs, cocktail onions, crushed ice, gardenias and the color peach. Yep…she was a little quirky.

I could wake my mom up at any hour of the night or day (provided she could stay awake) just to tell her about my day. It didn’t matter if nothing happened. She would always listen.

She was an amazing seamstress. A week before the dance, I had finally found a dress for my senior year Homecoming, only to find out that my best friend, Ashley, had found and purchased the same dress. So, what did we do? My mom and I headed to the fabric store, found a pattern and some fabric and off she went. She was sewing the hem as my date was walking up to the door to pick me up, but it was perfect. (I don’t have a picture of the dress in digital form, but if I remember to scan it, I’ll put it in.)

We could always hear my mom coming home before we ever saw her. She would come tearing into our court in the “party van” with the windows down and Neil Diamond blaring!
On the boats and on the planes…

My mom had an open door policy at the house. I can’t tell you the number of times I would get home to find my friends already there.

My mom’s best friend, Sydne, is a florist and throughout my youth, my mom would help Sydne with weddings and boutiques. Along the way, she picked up a few things, so my senior year, she made our little flower crowns for the Homecoming game (a tradition for all of the senior cheer and song leaders). She made all seven of them (I think maybe I helped a little).

My mom taught me that the only way the shower is truly clean is if the water is sheeting down the tile. Not sheeting = not clean.

My mom also taught me how to make a bed with hospital corners and how to fold towels the right way.

My mom loved to travel and she instilled this same love in me.

I learned how to bake because my mom was always happy to have us in the kitchen.

Christmas was her favorite holiday. She would decorate the house to the hilt. We had wreaths and sleighs and Apple Dolls (yes, weird) every where. We decorated gingerbread houses (she made the actual gingerbread from scratch) every year. We helped her make toffee and caramel and fudge for our teachers and neighbors. And we always had two Christmas trees. One for us to decorate and one for her…it was always flocked (you can see it in the background of the picture…please ignore the girls in front of it…silly teenagers) and if we wanted to help with that tree it was her way or no way.

Speaking of Christmas…I snooped one year and told Ashley (she’s the top center…and happens to be Sydne’s daughter) what I saw. It was a little video camera with a t.v. for kids. Ashley told Sydne. Sydne told my mom and, guess what. No video camera was found under the tree. My mom believed in her principles…one of which was not snooping.

I learned, by example, how to apply all of my makeup while driving (because she was a firm believer in makeup and she was always running late…she would even curl her hair in the car…do you remember those butane curling irons?) and I think about her often as I apply my mascara in the car on my way to work.

Speaking of butane curling irons…I also learned that it is completely possible to camp (I mean real camping, out in the woods, under the stars) and still look good. Yep…curling irons at camp, no electricity necessary.

When I was little (and this was still legal), my mom would bake sugar cookies for my entire class on my birthday and then she would bring them in, along with enough little frosting filled decorating bags (I got to help make them out of parchment triangles) and she would help my entire class decorate cookies.

Summer was my mom’s favorite time of year. She loved that we were home from school. She loved being in the pool. And she loved the warm feeling of a mild sunburn.

My mom taught swim lessons for years (long before I came along), but she would never get her hair wet. And when summer was approaching, she would buy one bathing suit in five different colors (yep, that’s where I get it from) and she would make sure that she had watches and flip-flops (although, we called them “thongs” then) to match.

My mom taught me about faith and kindness. Her two favorite sayings were, “It always works out.” and “You can catch more flies with honey than you can with vinegar.” She also taught me about the value of a good man, “It’s just as easy to fall in love with someone rich as it is to fall in love with someone poor.” Of course, she was kidding about the last one (kind of).

Okay…there are about 500 other things I could share, but for today, the last thing I want to share is that my mom taught me, by example, the most important part of being a mom…to make sure that your children always know how important you are and how much you love them.