the rest of my life

So, today was the first day of orientation for the MBA program at BYU. I really should have been writing more about this process as it was happening because deciding to come to BYU was quite the process. It’s not where I wanted to go at all. University of Texas was my first choice, hands down, but then I bombed the interview (and I mean BOMBED) so they rejected me. I got in to BYU and Vanderbilt and I tried everything in my power to make Vanderbilt feel right, but to no avail.

Truly, God knows what he is doing, so I’m not sure why it takes me so long to get on the same page as him. Anyway, I finally decided on BYU and to be honest, I don’t know if it was so much of a “I prayed about it and this is right” thing, as it was a “this makes the most sense for my future”. It’s way less expensive, especially with a full tuition scholarship for the first year and it has better California connections, which is where I’d like to be eventually.

What’s interesting about finally deciding is that as soon as I did I felt totally good about it. Sure, I still second guess myself, because that’s my nature, but deep down, I know BYU is the best place for me to be.

This weekend totally confirmed that. I guess I thought that I didn’t want to be around a bunch of “close minded” Mormons (yes, I realize I’m Mormon, but…), but what I discovered going on the OB/HR rafting trip this weekend is that I am not only okay with being at BYU, but I am actually thrilled. I didn’t realize how much I love being able to incorporate spirituality into my studies, probably because I don’t remember what it was like to not since the only time that happened was before college, but I do love it.

There were so many little confirming moments this weekend. I honestly felt overwhelmed by the Spirit and it has been a loooong time since I’ve felt that way (which is totally my own doing). Not only that, but I am starting to feel like marketing (my original plan) is not where I want to be anymore. I’m still deciding, but I think OB/HR might be the way to go for where I want to be in the future. We shall see. I’m definitely doing my research.

I really do wish that I had written more about what this whole experience has been like. I recorded events on my blog, but I missed out on the spiritual side of the whole thing.

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