So, I’ve had a lot of time to think this summer between helping out Alicia with her kids and Erika with…okay, being on vacation at Erika’s. I’ve spent a lot of that time thinking about dating…or marriage really. I don’t really date a lot, but when I do, it’s usually someone who I would not consider marrying and I wonder why I do that, but that’s a post for another day.

Anyway, while at Erika’s, I decided to try the online thing again and found myself kind of interested in this guy who I should not have been interested in. He had no education, was divorced with three kids and had other issues. What I realized in talking to him at length was that some of our similarities were qualities (or other stuff) that I do not want in a husband and I started thinking if I don’t want that in a husband, why would I ever be like that?

It’s amazing what a difference that has made in who I am and how aware I am of who I want to be. I know the ideal thing is to change behaviors to become more Christlike, but for now, this is working really well. I have had this “sin” that I have really been struggling with and as soon as this idea clicked in my head, the struggle was over.

My goal right now is to list the qualities I want in a husband and work on becoming that person. It sounds so simple, and really, it is. I just wish it were as easy as it is simple.