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life lessons

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Life is truly interesting. There are so many lessons to be learned. As I watched one of my dearest friends, Bobbi, marry her sweetheart this week, I felt so many different emotions. I was so happy for her. She deserves someone like Mark. I was so happy that I wasn’t the one getting married (thank goodness). But most of all, I felt hope. Hope for my future. Hope for Bobbi’s future. Hope for the life I have ahead of me.

One of the greatest lessons I am learning now is that God really is in control of our lives, or at least He can be if we allow Him to be. Life happens so fast and there are so many decisions to make every day. I am at a crossroads. I don’t know what the future holds. I have been trying so hard to figure it out; what I’m supposed to do, where I’m supposed to be, etc. The conclusion I finally came to is that I am on this ride, but God is the one driving the car. I don’t have to know what the future holds. I just need to trust God and keep on moving.

mistakes

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It’s sometimes easy to look at our past and ask “Why me?” For those of us who had the opportunity to hear Elder Wirthlin speak this Sunday, the question we should always ask is, “What next?” So, what’s next for me after the last eight months of mistakes…moving forward. I am learning from the mistakes I made and going on to live a better life. I am free. I have my whole life in front of me and I can choose to make it exactly what I want it to be.

I have so many dreams. I want to travel and see the world, not that I haven’t, but I want to see more. I want to go back to school to prove to myself that I can get through a master’s program with good grades and find a great job where I feel challenged and successful regularly. I want to learn to play an instrument. I want to SCUBA in the Galapagos and hike Mt. Kilimanjaro. Most importantly, I want to do what God wants me to do and become what He sees me becoming. What and who that is, I am discovering a little piece at a time.

What I love is that I’m done asking “Why me?” and “How could I have been so (fill in any negative adjective you like)?” and I am moving forward with, “What now?” Yes, I have made mistakes. We have all made mistakes. I am choosing to move on.

titillating technology

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My latest technological discovery–the webcam. Well, actually, my iPod is the latest and I’m in love with it. I sleep with it every night. But the webcam was the discovery just previous to the iPod.
Technology truly is amazing. It makes it so easy for us to stay disconnectedly connected. I read an article today about how Kate Spade doesn’t use email…ever. Seriously. I remember coming home from my mission and swearing that I would never own a cell phone. Yesterday I forgot it at home and I really felt like I had forgotten to brush my teeth. Kind of pathetic, but true. Our computers were down at work the other day and no one could function. No one. We are so dependent on these machines. And yet we love them and get excited about all of the new technology that comes out. We scramble to purchase the latest and greatest and it really does bring some level of happiness…albeit ephemeral, but a rush nonetheless. And the rush lasts until we realize that something better is out there, that your sister’s nano holds 4 gigs, while yours holds only 1 gig, or that your brother has an auxiliary port in his car so his iPod plugs right into his stereo.
To those of you relishing in the rush of your latest purchase I say,

“Enjoy it while it lasts…because it won’t last long.”

As for my iPod and I, we are getting along smashingly, and the pangs of sadness that hit on occasion when I think that I could’ve held out for the 4 gig nano (had the death of my 156 MB mp3 player that I purchased three years ago for $200 not necessitated the purchase of an iPod) aren’t so great as to totally diminish the enjoyment of having all those songs at my fingertips, or ears, as it were.

And the love/hate relationship with technology continues…