Yep. This week was bad. I already knew I’d be going to Thai food (which was delicious and totally worth it), but then I got a text from an old and dear friend who was going to be in town for the week and it was a situation where going to brunch just made sense. In hindsight, I probably could have invited her and her girlfriend over to my apartment, but I had a lot going on that day, so cooking brunch just didn’t occur to me.
On top of that, I had a couple of other slip ups and basically through in the towel for this week. It hasn’t been awful, but it has added up to going about $20 over budget. However, tomorrow starts a new week and I have no eating out plans for the rest of the month and I am determined to finish strong.
This brings me to my “all or nothing” mentality which has proven extremely challenging throughout my life. I’m just not good and not beating myself up for “failing” and when I do that, well, it’s pretty much a downward spiral from there. I know there will be an end. In this case, I’m working on one week time frames, so the “failure” had an end in sight…but I couldn’t just correct it during the week.
On top of eating out, I also ate a bunch of crap. What I haven’t mentioned on the blog is that I’m also really trying to watch what I eat in an effort to lose weight/feel better/look better. And that went out the door this week, too. The one thing I did great last week was I worked out six days (which is my goal). This week has not been so good (I missed Monday and Tuesday, but did go for a nice long run tonight).
Anyway, all of this is to say that I struggle. A lot. And while I definitely feel a little sense of “failure” as I look back on this week, I know that next week will be better and I’m trying to cut myself a little slack. I have two more weeks of this and I can totally do it…and then it will be time to set some new (more realistic) goals.
P.S. I realize that this post is pretty boring, but I’m really tired…but I also didn’t want to skip it or put it off since I want this record for myself.
existential dilemmas 
The good news is, we have kickboxing on Monday. 🙂 (There is actually a SMALL chance I might not be able to make it, but it's small.) And if you were going to skip a week this was a good one because the class was way more crowded than I've ever seen it, and it was a really tough week for some reason. Blah.I'm still proud of you, and I think cutting your month into weeks is a great idea. You did great the first two weeks, so I say two steps forward, one step back still keeps you going in the right direction!